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Poverty? Perceptions through the eyes of the "developed"

Where I just was in Tanzania is heaven compared to what I just walked through last night on my way home from an event in East Hastings (The downtown east side) in Vancouver, BC. It is truly a world unto its own. Pushed aside, ignored by many who purposefully choose to not frequent the area, shielding themselves form the realities that are right in our own backyards.

And then I think too about the perceptions of the west from those beautiful African lands I just had the pleasure of being on... how people I met there told me they think everyone in the west has money, is rich, and lives happy lives.

Oh how I wish I could shed the true light on all of that. We're not doing much better and in fact we might even be doing worse. Sure we have "things" (though a lot of us don't), but what else do we have? It is perhaps that it gets hidden better, placed in a box and out of the minds eye.....plus mental illness is already more hidden. And of course, the people heading to Africa are the ones who have the money and generally mental health in check, so the interactions on the ground in Africa are quite one-sided, one type of person.

It completely boggles my mind how people can flee far and wide, all congregating on one continent…Africa, for what seems like one purpose “to save the [insert perceived underprivileged group here]” - though I met many foreigners who were against this type of thing while there, the general story that seems to be spread is one of "saving". Granted people converge in other “developing” countries too, not just countries in Africa…. But the point is people flee their own space (which they arguably know best since they've grown up there, live it, and are part of the culture) to “help” other spaces that, quite frankly, likely don’t need the help, and are indeed hindered by such things as it creates dependency, and people participating in projects that ultimately don't help the community but there is money to access so "why not"? sort of mentality. It's not to say that each place doesn't have it's problems, but that those problems are generally better dealt with by locals who know the issues inside and out because they live in them, have been part of it for their whole lives and are connected to the cultural subtleties etc.

Is it that the pain is too great to witness in our own homes? That we don’t know how to fix it so we run somewhere else where the problems seem relatively easier to fix, or so we perceive in our biased western minds? Is it because we're concerned with the numbers of it all "I saved 5 families, or I helped 10 kids go to school..." Is it because we need those cold hard facts or else we feel like we're not doing anything?

It reminds me of the chapter entitled Morphogenesis, in Charles Eisenstein's newest book The More Beautiful World our Hearts Know is Possible - which is available for free online. :) Thanks Charles! Here's a quote that sums it up a bit...but I recommend reading the whole chapter, and, indeed, the whole book.

I wish I could say that the new story provides a map, but it does not. It can, however, remove the disorienting fog of habits and beliefs, leftovers of the old paradigms, that obscure our internal guidance system. The principles of interbeing do not, on their own, offer a formula for decision making. Even if you accept that “I and the world are one,” you will not be able to distinguish whether it will benefit all sentient beings more to stay home and reduce your carbon emissions, or to drive to the rally to protest fracking. To attempt such a calculation draws from the old story, which seeks to quantify everything, to add up the effects of any action, and to make choices accordingly. That way of making choices is useful only in certain, narrow circumstances—in particular, those in which cause and effect are more or less linear. It is appropriate for many engineering problems and financial decisions. It is the mindset of the actuary, weighing risks and payoffs. The new story is a much bigger change than to revalue the risks and seek new payoffs. It is not going to help you make choices from the calculating mind. But it will provide a logical framework within which our heart-based choices make a lot more sense.

Poverty is one thing, and it’s relative, and generally seems worse through our (the west) eyes, understandings, and perceptions because over here, money talks, and money is what we need to get anything done...community comes second if at all, if we have money, we're fine, so when we see people without money we immediately think the worst. What we fail to miss is that despite not having much in the way of cash flow, when people live in a community that supports them, when they are able to grow their own food, and when their mental health is in check - they are doing really good. In addition, things are not so heavily monetized in these countries, so not having a lot of money is not the deciding factor on whether or not one lives a good life. Now consider not only poverty (which we have plenty of in the west), but include with it the pervasive western isolation, deteriorating community and mental health issues that largely go unaddressed (which arguably result from such isolation and disconnect of community) coupled with social systems that do little to truly alleviate the root of the problem – it’s a whole new ball game. Is it that it's too painful? Too close to home to be able to do anything about it? Is it that it's "cool" to help Africa, and "what people do" but it's not yet on our minds to help those right in front of it? Someone please tell me what it is....as I'm rather perplexed by it all.

At the end of the day, given our deep interconnection, if I have a meaningful interaction with someone here, or in a different city, country, continent and we, together, generate good energy and positive feelings, this helps the whole world.... but I just wonder why we use so much time, energy, and money, to fly half way around the world to help people and make ourselves feel good when we could walk down the street and help our neighbors? Or heck, even say Hi to them! A "Hi" goes a long way...especially in today's disconnected (side of the) world.

And I don't mean to say this to point fingers at those who do go oversees to volunteer and do aid work (of course I went too, to work for an organization, but my goal was learning, not "helping" as I mentioned in my first post for trip #2) ...I'm merely trying to understand it, to raise the question and bring about dialogue as it's important to be aware of such things, and consider our reasons for doing what we do.

What I do know is that what I felt and experienced last night brought me a deep sense of sadness. For what is happening there isn’t unique. It’s the reflection of how are feeling inside, of what is going on in our world today, of the disconnect and separation; the old story rearing it’s broken face.

What do we do?

Posted by Jocelynn.R 15:16 Archived in Canada Tagged tanzania canada aid volunteer interconnection seperation dtes Comments (0)

Changing times; changing stories.

Repairing degraded landscapes and making "tending to the land" read: self-sufficiency, cool again.

When I first arrived (and indeed, still now) I was having some serious doubts regarding NGO’s; whether they help or hinder, and whether my being here, along with many other western volunteers, was negatively impacting the surrounding area. I still have many thoughts on this, some have been posted, some have been saved to be posted at a later date, and some remain in my journal…I hope to solidify my thoughts and articulate them in away that makes sense so I can share as I do believe it’s important to share these experiences and new understandings.

Browsing facebook led me to a post my friend Steven had shared, on April 10, 2014;

//When we learned of Salaash’s dream for his people some time ago we became interested in getting an “up close and personal” understanding, so when the opportunity to visit the Masa Mara when their family was also going to be there presented itself last June we jumped at it. My family and I found ourselves overwhelmed by the richness of Masaii culture. From their generosity of spirit, to the communal manner in which they live their lives to absence of the compartmentalization that dominates western culture we found that we had so much to learn from the Masaii. It would be a travesty to see the Masaii culture absorbed into the dominate African culture; a travesty reminiscent of that experienced by our own aboriginal peoples and one which need not occur. For us the Oltumo well project is an amazing multidimensional opportunity to help Salaash and family fulfill their dream to offer a model of sustainable living for the Masaii as they transition to a life of land ownership, one that retains the important cultural elements as defined by the Masaii themselves as well as developing a relationship between our Saskatoon “family” and theirs that hopefully will enrich the lives of everyone involved. -Gary Groot//

[side note: nothing against the fellow who posted the above but as I re-read this now, in a different state of mind, I feel a pain inside, a pain for my fellow people. That we in our countries think we need to help so many far away while ignoring what is right in front of us, which we indeed are more familiar with and thus know better how to fix, be it our own selves, or the systems that we are entrenched in. The way this man has raised the issue of our own aboriginal people makes it sound like it’s in the past, but many atrocities are still occurring – why do we go half way around the world to “help”, when indeed, our people, ourselves, are struggling too? Don’t get me wrong, if someone feels fully compelled to do work elsewhere then do it, but I really think we each need to go deep inside ourselves to discover the true reasons we may be doing what we’re doing. Also I’m very skeptical of any situation that involves someone thinking they need to help. To me it’s an "egoic" red-flag , it’s the ego talking….we need to move beyond the ego, as I believe it’s the only way we will do what we are ultimately called to do, what ultimately makes us truly come alive. It’s not selfish, it’s natural, and it’s only perceived as selfish from the viewpoint of separation…but indeed we are not separate.]

Now, back to Gary's comment....of course I immediately thought of Bablo, given that he is Maasai and I wondered if he felt these types of pressures, especially given that he has left his lands, and returns only briefly each year. So I asked him in a facebook message, after tagging him in the aforementioned post:

“I'm curious your thoughts. It also makes me think about a lot and have more questions that I hope we can talk about, like for instance, who will continue the traditions if younger generations are coming into town and getting city jobs. I am in love with your culture, Bablo. It's so magnificent and as that man says we could learn so much from it...we absolutely need to learn from your ways I think. I hope I can bring some knowledge back with me to canada to share.”

His response was as follows:

//Yea, its a big challenge that cultures , especially my culture is going through. The invention of education itself has brought a big impact on Maasai culture. The growth of technology in rural areas, masmedia , infrastructure improvement and a lot more have impacted culture negatively. Introduction of Western life style as the better way of living has also hinder the local cultures. Pharmaceutical medication has dropped peoples well being, their strengths etc. The assistance /help, sponsorships has also made people go easy and so dependant. The population growth interiorly , the land demanding for different uses, has badly influenced the negative environmentally impact. People have been moving to towns and big city in searching of better life, money has been ruining peoples life,, money wasn't a big thing in back ages. All these together has brought about people being not friendly, severe death to each other, people killing each other and so forth. Mbaya sana, but how can this be avoided? Education has been called the key of life,, so everyone is looking for the key of life, nice buildings, good cars , fancy meals etc. Our (my) grandparents had great life without that key of life. Good numbers of cattle, nice food, happy life, so friendly, helping each other and so forth. They were happy with their thatched houses, sleeping on the cow hides and eat more naturally despite the big number of cattle they've got. Cattle were not ever injected with pharmaceutical medicine, neither human beings, and they were healthy now are not..need education, need pharmacies, need nice roofed house, need nice mattress, need fancy clothing style ,need all these what called good life.//

His response impacted me in a deep way and I felt a strong sense of “this is why I’m here”, and I still don’t even know what that means but it was a feeling none the less. I wanted to share his insights, bring them to light and explore them further but it took me a while (until now) to do so, which enabled me to come at it from a deeper angle, based on other conversations I was able to have and other people I was able to meet along the way. Still, however I imagine my insight is quite limited….. as it is with most thoughts, situations, contemplations….one has opinions and beliefs, ideas that start to form, then as one gains more experience, insight, has discussions with people, witnesses different things, the perceptions, understandings and truths change…and that’s a good thing. We evolve, we grow, we change.


In early June, I ventured to Ngabobo, an area somewhat close to the Tanzania/Kenya boarder, a beautiful Maasai area situated in between Mt. Killi and Mt. Meru. There was something about being right in the middle of the landscapes once right and teaming with life, now barren and seemingly idle….only a handful of trees remained, harsh winds, very little rains.

I was processing it all but I don’t think it had really “soaked” in until we sat for breakfast on the last morning. One of the founders of the organization joined us for breakfast, and told us about some of her experiences thus far, namely lack of income generating activities for the local Maasai women. As she went on about the different projects her foundation had tried, and why they did or did not work well, I started thinking….. income, money, economy, I've heard this before.... This sounds all too familiar. It’s the common story of our times it seems “we are not able to make enough money” this is not just here, in the west too, it maybe looks a little different in each country, but ultimately, we are all experiencing this stressor, “in the west it sounds a little something like ....we are educated but we can't find jobs, what do we do, how do we make a living” etc. Though of course part of the issue is our definition of "to make a living".

As my brain scrambled to make sense of it all, I thought back to Bablo’s earlier message, where he described a time that many other cultures describe too, that arguably can be quite romanticized but in this case was for real, the truths about the past, where people (his grandparents) did live in harmony with nature, had enough, and got along quite well. I was struggling to understand why now we have all these issues? What has changed? What is the fundamental difference that is causing such ruckus?

I suppose it was, perhaps, being present in and bearing witness to these barren landscapes, being directly in it something clicked, the amalgamation of my brains thinkings and musings– I realized that all the issues people face today are by in large a result of degraded landscapes. If the soil was fertile, people would not need to spend money on countless chemicals to grow their water hungry crops in a now extremely dry and arid landscape (of course one realizes the sheer absurdity of growing a water hungry crop in arid land, but people have been lured by the promise a lot of cash, fast…but at what true costs?)…I digress.

If the soil was fertile, people would not need to flee their lands, inwards to the city, in search of an income producing task. The issues we face now are in large due to degraded landscapes.

Part of me wants to say the situation is entirely more complicated than I’m making it sound, but is it? Never has something felt more clear to me than in that moment. We, with our intelligent brain systems have a tendency of overcomplicating things…and I do believe it's true, as Bill Mollison says,

"Though the problems of the world are increasingly complex,the solutions remain embarrassingly simple.”

Let’s bring the fertility back to the lands, and we will undoubtedly flourish.

Maybe you are now thinking –living the way people were living before worked because was less people, and less cattle, but now with the growth of both these populations, how do we manage – and that’s a fair point, but if one stopped there they would be forgetting a crucial detail, THE detail which changes everything….. fertility being taken out of the land, year after year without being replenished – growing food, tilling, growing food, tilling…take take take, the cycle has not been completed. Such significant losses of topsoil (and topsoil is important why? Because it contains the matter which gives us all life, all the soil microorganisms, bacteria, fungi, and countless other species, many of which we haven't even given names to yet, that decompose our scraps, and mulch, that help to stabilize the soil, capture carbon, retain water, and offer nutrients in exchange for food to the plants that grow in such soil and thus nutrify our bodies, that build more soil in situ if given proper care) with everything being taken out, and nothing replenished of course we find ourselves in barren situations such as this.

Something became painfully clear to me in that moment – we need to actively be building soil, and restore landscapes. All else falls into place when the lands around us can provide for, and deeply nourish, us. This wasn't new, persay, I had heard many people and permaculturalists alike talk about building soil, and the importance of it…but to be honest it hadn't sunk in. Quite honestly, I was a bit confused as to how people were SO passionate about it, I mean I was too but not to the degree I saw from others….from a technical perspective I understood the concept and reasons behind it, but I realize now that I had not truly integrated it until the moment at breakfast…upon integration, all else became clear – our work must involve building soil, which will help to restore the lands as they once were – rich and fertile. It’s fun when things click into place.

So, moral of the story – BUILD soil! How?

 Compost all waste – this includes not only food scraps, but humanure too! It’s not gross, we need to get over that, it’s a cycle. Everything in nature occurs in loops, the death of one thing is life and food for another…. We are no exception so let’s move beyond the initial reactions to a deeper understanding of balance and harmony with mother nature. Animals don’t go to the bathroom in flush toilette's, we are also animals ..and we’re said to be intelligent, so why is it that our systems are hurting the lands. We need to re-think. You can keep it separate too if you’re worried, you don’t need to put the finished product (which by the way resembles nothing like it’s initial stage, and is indistinguishable from nutrient rich soil) on your annual veggie garden, you can put it around fruit trees or even your bee friendly flower bed or insect areas. In a book I’m reading I learned this “It is said that each human being excretes enough plant nutrients to grow enough plants to sustain him or herself” Ben Falk – The Resiliant Farm and Homestead p107. … “all our excess bodily nitrogen goes into our urine, the same nitrogen that is often the limiting factor to plant growth. Coincidence? Cycle value in the system – transform waste from one element into food for another, always” (ibid). Boom!

 Mulch everything! Don’t take yard trimmings or leaves off site, hauled away to be “disposed of”. That is nature’s gift to the lands, to replenish and restore….let nature do its thing. It’s actually quite ridiculous how much effort we exert, be it in money, time, or energy, to take nutrients off site…keep them on site! You save all of those otherwise wasted resources, we win by having healthy lands…this is why I love Permaculture…it’s always a win win situation. Paper, cardboard and other such things can be used in composting or building soil layers – lasagna gardening, check it out.

 Worm bins! - Another great way to actively build nutrient rich humus to add to your soil. Worms actually build/create the most quality product around.

We must constantly be putting back in to the system, more than we take out in harvest, if not more at least equal, but why not put more…;)

But in moving beyond the practical “how-to”, as this is extremely important to consider, it becomes even clearer that it’s not all about us not knowing what to do, it’s about our minds being stuck in a paradigm that no-longer fits the reality of the world around us. It's about grieving the pain of loss that we find ourselves in (these barren landscapes, social issues, and other pressures), and moving deeper and beyond, where we find the courage to act, and the strength and love to persevere. It was all fine and dandy while we had many resources to waste, and a planet able to absorb our polluting ways, but we’re reaching limits, and it’s time we change. We do have all the answers we need, all the solutions we need, but we need the mind-shift to join us in these solutions – people to wake up from the coma of consumption, materialism – the American dream. Most of the discussion around needing money, when you boil it down, is because we’re told that we need to “buy fancy things, drive fancy cars, live in big fancy houses”…or else we are useless. That is such an old story. Let’s be done with it once and for all.

So this was one key revelation I had had, but in talking to another, it became clear that the problem here occurs on two ends of the spectrum, which seems fitting as in my experience here, most things happen in extremes – for example, it’s either super pole pole (slowly slowly), or EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING AT ONCE AND HAPPENING NOW! There have been other examples and yet I’m drawing a blank now….I digress.

This other-end-of-the-spectrum view became clear to me while sitting in the Global Resource Alliance office in Musoma, having a goodbye chat with Christopher, who is very involved in empowering youth in his surrounding community. I asked him about my hypothesis, to test my assumptions of course…. about whether or not the lands being degraded was leading to social issues, lack of sufficient income etc…. and he said in fact, in his area, this was not true, it was the opposite. The lands are extremely fertile…what then, I wondered, was the issue? He explained to me that it is seen as lower class work, being a farmer, that most people aim to get an office job, wear a suit, and live that “image”….ah, I couldn't help but feel sad for it seemed like the story of capitalism, consumerism, and consumption was rapidly eating up the deep culture and community that distinguishes this place, that I think brings people coming back.

Farming, he told me, was seen as a thing of the past, that only very poor people did , because they had to…why ever would they want to?. . . and I thought about Canada and its history. Well we surely went through this too – once we had machines to do the work for us, farming by hand was seen as petty, and once one farm could produce significant amounts of food (in an ridiculously unsustainable monocultureed way I might add, but of course this being bad was not part of the collective dialogue at this time), this freed up time for others……to get sedentary office jobs and contemplate their existence….. ok maybe not so extreme but something like that.

Certainly the stats show a significant drop in the numbers of farmers (though they are rising now!)…. And I do remember growing up not really thinking farming was a “thing to do”, or “what one aimed/strived” to do…I even remember some friends telling me they’d go back to the lands and be farmers as their parents and grandparents had been. But if I am being honest, to me this sounded regressive…I’m sad to say it did but this was before I discovered what I know now…. And, if anything it helps me to understand that this is a process, that people change over time, and wake up to new realities based on their experiences and daily doings. If I had this mental shift, so too can many others.

So then, it appears, I’ve encountered two issues….. but they are hardly issues as both can be easily solved. 

The first one, heavily degraded landscapes….. let’s employ PERMACULTURE principles, to help restore the lands, to help re-integrate humans with nature to live in harmony, and in flow, and to help regenerate life, guiding it in the direction it wants to go. And, maybe it’s a chicken versus egg situation – how do people start to feel, re-connect, and have that *mind shift* that I spoke of earlier…., certainly by touching soil, getting outside, working with our hands, with people, in community, all of these ignite fires in use and bring us closer to the understanding that we are not separate beings in a lifeless universe, we are all deeply interconnected and each and every one of us (all species), plays a very important role.

The second, people seeking office jobs over food security …..let’s make farming, growing food, self-sustaining living, and regeneration of systems, cool again. This is of course happening in Canada, I see lots of it in Vancouver and Calgary (where I of course have the most experience but it exists everywhere). I can see this in movies, and articles always popping up on facebook and other social media sites, people sharing their homesteadery tips and tricks…

it’s FREAKING COOL, heck it’s even attractive to be proficient and skillful at living life ….it’s cool to have your own garden, grow your own food, consider where your food comes from, ask the waiter if the chicken had friends and lived a happy life, bring your own bag to the grocery store, bring your own container to get take-out, avoid using plastic, bring your own coffee mug to shops, and have your reusable cutlery always on hand…these things are cool – why? Because it’s cool to care about the planet we live on, it’s cool to consider our impact, and it’s cool to get back to the lands. It also feels really good. It feels good to share with others what we’re doing, how we made this or what, skill share, and skilling up…these are invaluable tools for the future we will find ourselves in, without a doubt. And at the end of the day, we are connecting ourselves to a deep community of people who are, and community feels really good, too.

In the end when the systems we currently rely upon fail us, and they will because they are merely a story, a construct, not founded in reality, what will stand the test of time is the community we have around us; resources can be lost, or taken, but relationships, and skills, this can only get better.

As it were, I’m about to head home, back to Canada, but I leave feeling good, inspired and confident with the state of our world. I know good people who are doing all of the above here and the movement will only continue to grow, more and more, locals and foreigners alike. It’s a joint effort and it’s beautiful. More and more people are being trained in permaculture on a daily basis, more and more are sharing success stories of converting their once monocultured cash-crop to a polycultural perennial system, which is not only feeding their family, and providing a wealth of health benefits, but it is also providing a surplus to sell and generate income- they can now feed their family, and share in the abundant excess.

Why won’t I be staying here to do this? Because I now fell and understand deeply that I belong in Canada. I love it here, without a doubt, and I will likely be back again to visit, and gain further knowledge but it’s Canada that I need. (and I won’t hold on to the promise of returning, as I do not want to be pulled to somewhere else as I go to live my life in Canada, I will neither hold on nor let it go, it just is).

There is so much beauty in the west.

It seems we only talk about what is wrong with it, and of course what we focus on, we give energy to, and it perpetuates….there is a whole other world of amazing, passionate, creative, intuitive, compassionate and inspiring people who are doing amazing things - that story needs to be told, it needs to rise up over the current mass media story. And if one believes that the west/American dream mentality has been pushed over here and this is why people want office jobs, and will build cement homes over the entirely more economical, environmental, climate friendly, resilient, and energetic earthen homes, then one could believe that the more we shed light on this new, beautiful, deeply inspiring story in the west, that it will trickle over here too. That coupled with the already established deep culture of love and community will do wonders on our current world situation.

But however it ends up, the many ripple effects, I’ve learned in this time away that ultimately I come alive in Vancouver and I strongly believe we must situate ourselves where we come alive; where are bodies, minds, and spirits can be in unison. For me, that isn’t here…and that is okay. Though just to be absolutely clear, that is not to say one can’t find that here, it’s definitely here, but just not for me.

As we all become more educated in the west about the damages our habits/lifestyles do to other countries, (example – thinking about where our food comes from, how was it grown, did farmers far away need to spray chemicals and endanger their health, their families health, the water systems near to them, and our planet?, or how did we get our clothes?), as start to transform ourselves into becoming local producers versus global consumers, and change our buying patterns to more locally sourced, sustainable, resilient, and regenerative products, we not only lessen our negative impacts on these foreign countries who can then start to focus on themselves, and their own well-being (not frantically spraying the lands to quickly export cash crops), we increase our own local resilience, too…there’s that win-win again. Beautiful, really.

I can sense (it's actually sad that I sense this, but it speaks to the strength of the "old story") that some readers might be scoffing at what I say, thinking “oh how naïve she is”….but I honestly believe that it is not as complicated as we make it to be. It is perhaps that which they want us to think “it’s complicated situation, it is hard to change…” so that we hopelessly and blindfully continue on, business as usual…but it can change, it IS changing, and it IS that simple.

We, the ultimate consumer, have all the power….. they make what we buy. While it’s easy to forget because we are inundated with images and adds telling us what we need to buy, what we need to be afraid of and buy to avoid these feelings, we have the last say we; we ultimately are the ones who go to the store and make the final purchase. We vote with our dollars, so what will your dollars say for the world? And the more we make things ourselves (i.e. become producers over consumers), the less dollars voting we even need, thus the less dollars we need too….so the less sedentary-sitting-in-a-re-circulated-air-office we need to do….the more we live, the more our work becomes a loving life, and the more resilient we become. Yet another, win win.

Lastly, what has also solidified in me more now is that despite what it may seem from mainstream media, or our own perceptions/thoughts (which arguably have been heavily influenced by said “mainstream media”) about how “doomed” we are, there are countless people, everywhere, doing amazing things to restore our environment, to help nature (and of course people fall into that too!) flourish.

For every seemingly horrible corporation, or individual who is carrying on business as usual, or worse, promoting these polluting and harmful practices to continue, there are many many people in many many places doing rad things…. And that honestly has significant power, despite what it may seem to the onlooker who focuses only on the big picture…these don’t necessarily make it into the immediate view of the big picture but ultimately it shapes the big picture, whether we’re aware of it or not. So, that knowledge makes me feel good…. I know this is happening everywhere on earth…as I see it wherever I go. Pretty cool stuff.

Here during my stay, I met countless individuals dedicated to helping this earth of ours. Laura and Candice of Tia Nuru and the Moivaro cob house, Mr and Mrs. Kitomari, William Reeta at Tengeru, Janet Moro of Sustainable Agriculture Tanzania, countless local beekeepers, Chaga people keeping the traditional knowledge of food forest farming alive, coffee growers who stuck by organic coffee when those around them switched to chemicals, Mr. Moringa with his many organic moringa products, Permaculture courses and demonstration sites happening everywhere via PRI Kenya, Africa Amini Earth, Sustainable Agriculture Tanzania, Food Water Shelter, GRA, Oikos and their many activities to increase awareness around organic farming practices among many initiatives, Green Team Africa promoting zero waste and starting up recycling in the area,…the list goes on…and this is just what I encountered in a short while, in a very small area in Tanzania, now think about the rest of the world…let us not forget, there are so many amazing people doing such amazing things and this will continue on.

So, whenever I feel disheartened, or down about the shape of our world…I will remember that much of what I may not see is amazing, and individual people are starting movements, and these movements are growing, and that while these acts seem small, they are of great significance and ought not to be diminished.

See you soon, Canada.

Posted by Jocelynn.R 03:05 Archived in Tanzania Tagged culture love community maasai environment permaculture Comments (1)

Safety is in Community, Not in Fear

making sense of things, thinking of home, and finding my place in it all

The below was written, and then life changed - as it always does, though arguably more rapidly and dramatically here it feels. A bit of an EDIT therefore (and I've edited the below slightly as well)....I’m still here, in Tanzania, but I left the organization I arrived with. I'm starting to feel more connected and integrated to the lands, and am involved in a promising permaculture project and an organization that I can tell from my first few moments is actually maybe one of the few organizations that is doing good here, and by that I mean, in a way that makes sense given the situation, and in a way that involves locals and reflects actual needs, not those perceived by our biased western minds (but I'll save that maybe for another post). So I shall be here until it no longer feels right to be here. I do still feel ready to go home and yet inside I also feel as though I am not quite yet finished here…..I keep having dreams that I’m back in Canada, and those dreams are always met with a slight regret, that I came back too early…and so I will trust that and carry on here.

I was so worried to leave before because I didn’t want to miss it, once back in Canada, though there were many things that I missed, and wanted to be back home, I didn’t feel ready….I am starting to feel ready now. I’m ready to get back to the place I not only love, but where I feel love so deeply. Where I can run along the seawall and embrace nature as it embraces me back. Where I can pull back the leafs and stick my head into the forest floor and smell the sweet, rich, and crisp smells of decomposing matter and mycelium. Where I can inhale a big gulp of pure, fresh, forest filtered air without any other lingering particles of exhaust, dust, or other such chemicals. Where going down the street doesn't make me full of dust and dirt, or even walking from the shower stall to my room. It is not to say one place is better than the other, but it is to say that I feel I personally belong in one place over the other. And just as I belong back home, there are of course many who belong here and that is just fine. Many whom have lived here for their whole lives and have adapted/grown up with these landscapes, these patterns, which makes them much more apt to live here than me, who would feel exactly as I feel if they were to try to live in Canada, that is to say, disconnected, and out of touch, I'm sure. None of this "the west is what everyone should be like". Not at all.

It’s really been a whirlwind these past few months, more recently past month. Many organizational issues that I won't go into detail here but suffice it to say, it's really helped me to think deeply about why people "help", whether they should help, and whether or not they are doing more harm than good. In general, the issues that have gone on where I was continued to bring about a general lack of trust, though that being said, it seems it was always like this, people were just waiting for something to latch on to, to gossip about or point fingers at. I could begin to speculate on why things are the way they are but I believe it would be futile because I can’t even begin to comprehend the complexities that exist in a place of which I am completely foreign to. And, arguably, more than half, if not all, of the issues that I've witnessed, likely wouldn't be issues at all had we never set foot here.... that's maybe a bit harsh to say, but I do wonder these things. Regardless, I can't possibly know the full situation because while, yes, I've spent almost four month’s here now but that’s nothing, a blip in the radar, a single kernel in rows upon rows of monocultured maize.

I want deeply to understand, and still, I will try, but I am realizing now that there are just so many subtle (and not so subtle) cultural differences which leave me isolated and on the edge (though nothing wrong with some edge #perm-ref-boom #addinghyphenssopeopleknowwhati'ma-be-hashing?).

Despite having lived in Canada for the majority of my life, there are still subtleties one can’t pick up on and within any group of people, any village, town, city, province, it can fluctuate and vary. Culture is complex, it is fluid, and ever changing. We not only exist in it, we exist with it, we are it and it is us, and it’s difficult to understand something when you’re in it, by the mere fact of trying to understand it you invariably shape it, it becomes impossible to assess from afar, objectively.

In my heart it felt so right to come here. My heart, mind, body, everything was in alignment. I would have thought when it was ready to come home I’d have a clear path for my future, a goal, a set destination, much like my previous goal/destination (CA designation) - i.e. having a clear plan, and allowing myself to coast, I have none of what I thought I would but I’m sure I have so much more than I ever imagined, though it remains unclear as of yet. (So, maybe it's a good thing then that I will still be staying).

Regardless of how everything has gone down, I still feel sure about having come here. I have learned a lot, my head has exploded ten times over with thoughts and ponderings, and I have many writings to reflect on. I also believe that once I am home countless other lessons and experiences will flood my memory and shape and change me. When I do eventually go home, I'd love to have a plan, as I originally thought I would have by the end of this "trek", it sure would make everything a lot easier, having a specific plan that could be written down, numbers added to it, timelines and charts, calculated and ready to go…but alas…. No specific plan.

I think that’s part of this transition though, it is learning to live in emotions and feelings, and less in the head space of “I will do this, then this and that will equal this…”. It’s about trust, and being in the flow. To be honest though, I’ve been really out of the flow over here, which confuses me since coming here felt like such a right decision - I'm at a loss for what I need to be doing here, to feel that connection again. I hope this new place I'm at can help me to find my flow again, and I have a good feeling about it all, as already I feel so much better than where I was previously. But regardless, when I do eventually return home, I look forward to getting back into the flow there, into alignment, into where my heart explodes by looking at the ocean, where a run is more than a run. . . it’s a giant hug from mother nature and a place for my consciousness to travel into the depths of the forest floor, and the heights of our cosmic essence. But I know I shouldn't think like this - that it will only happen once I'm home, I ought to trust that it can happen anywhere, any time or place - that it's not about where I am, it's about what I am feeling inside, what I am tuned into, and I think actually feeling safe enough in place, to let go of the outside world to be able to focus on the inside world - and so maybe that is it, I have not yet felt safe/comfortable enough to let go and let in.

I've thought back to what my friend would always say when we’d go running by the water or hang out near the ocean - how much she loved Vancouver, how beautiful it was, how beautiful Canada was and how glad she was to be there. Whenever she’d say that it, while I did not disagree, it always made me a little sad because instead of being able to wholeheartedly agree with her, I always felt a bit strange, because inside I felt a deep sense of longing towards Africa; I felt unfulfilled, and like I could not fully appreciate what was in front of me because I had somewhere else I felt I needed to be. I am happy to report that I don’t think I will feel that anymore – but of course I can’t be sure until I’m back home.

I have really tried to ensure that if it’s time to go, it means that when I go home I won’t feel that sense of longing. It’s not fun to feel that because you never feel complete in where you are. I think I will feel complete now. I suppose it’s that saying, if you love something let it go and if it comes back …etc. etc.… I let my home go and I feel it coming back, and I deeply appreciate it now in so many more ways than one. Inherent trust and safety though keep standing out for me.

The other night there was a big debacle with having a guest here. I am currently the only volunteer and wanted to have another presence around because I just don’t like being alone in this compound – I like being around people, I don’t necessarily need to be engaging with them all the time but I like to have other human energy relatively nearby. The power went out and so I was sitting in my room with candles not wanting to go outside. A friend had mentioned he could stay in one of the extra rooms if this was something I felt I wanted. I had sort of been pushing it off for a while now thinking I would be fine but I was at the point where I really did not want to be alone in the dark - my mind thinking about all the rats, potential snakes, and then general unrest since people were let go etc. So I decided to take my friend up on his offer. Well, easier said than done. We had to spend an hour outside the gate, discussing it with the guard, calling people back and forth, getting translations, more calls etc etc. Eventually the askari let him in, but we had to write a note saying I accept all responsibility and sign it. Now of course the askari was just doing his job, arguably a very good job, but also it was so sad to me to realize that, here is a situation wherein a fellow human being is showing compassion for another, trying to help someone in a moment of stress/fear (i.e. not wanting to be alone in the dark), and instead of it being recognized and appreciated for what it is, it’s seen as a threat. I also learned the askari thought that perhaps it was a ploy to fire him, so that he would agree to let my friend in and then BAM he’d be fired. It broke my heart to learn that this is where people’s minds go. That would never in a million years cross my mind as something that might be going on. So this whole situation just really made me appreciate Canada, the inherent trust which is built into our systems (granted there is a lot of untrustworthiness and I am not trying to say Canada is perfect but it’s different) which allows individuals to feel safe/trusted. Which allows me to bring friends over to my house and not worry about what potential crimes it may cause. When you can’t even trust individual people who you know/work with/are friends with….that is a deep loss for the community, and honestly for all of humanity, as we are all deeply connected.

I later learned that this ordeal had caused turmoil in the community as well - people were talking...why was a girl hanging out with a guy? This is the culture here, girls don't have guys who are friends....which also reminds me that I wouldn't be able to fully fit in here, I have many great guy friends. I have great girl friends too, but I don't think I could just have one gender as friends...rather, it's not even gender specific, I don't think "oh here is a guy I want to be his friend...it's just, here are rad people, and now we happen to be friends.

Anyhow, I also learned that there was confusion as to why I would need a guest when I have askari, why don’t I feel safe with them? So I started to really consider that – and I asked myself, why was it that I felt safer with my friend coming over than the askari….and it may seem glaringly obvious now reading this but it took me a bit of journaling my thoughts down to realize.

Trust does not exist on its own, in a vacuum, simply because, and the mere fact that someone is paid to be an askari doesn't make me feel trust towards that person. Trust isn't given, or bought, it's earned, actually it's experienced, and it grows over time and usually based on conversations and on getting to know a person, or witnessing actions (like how I trusted one of the bus drivers to help me get to the other bus station, and find a guest house, because of the way he interacted with guest on the bus and because of what another person I met had said, about how he is always on the phone with kids’ parents letting them know when we’ll be arriving….save that for another blog post!) I have said only a few words to the askari who was on duty that night, and it was very basic, and all in Swahili, so that shows how basic it would be as I am clearly not yet fluent. Quite simply, we don't speak the same language. It would therefore be very difficult for me to trust him for that reason. It's not that I don't trust him… it's that I'm neutral I suppose. I trust him in a surface level kind of way because people say I should but that isn't how trust works...and so I felt better having my friend here too because I know him, I can talk to him in English and if something is going wrong….I can express myself and he will get it. But also from the perspective of.... here is someone I really don't know, and he's getting paid to keep me secure, to me that isn't how I feel secure. It’s not to say I should not feel secure but I feel secure when I know people, and know the community and feel comfortable because I know my neighbors. I don't know anyone here and quite honestly an electrified cement fence doesn't make me feel safe. I can’t recall specifically where I read this quote, I think in one of Charles Eisenstein’s books (which was I believe a Chinese proverb reiterated) ..... it was about how these types of structures/fear mongering keeps honest people out but the thief will find a way in regardless. People here were asking me after this incident - how do you not feel safe? You have askari and a fence and all this... but yes, that is why.... because safety is in community, from a place of love, connection, relationship, and knowing that people, real people have your back, people you know. Your safety is therefore not built upon fear, it’s built upon community. And this whole experience just reinforces so deeply to me how important community is and how glad I am to realize that.

I started thinking also….how utterly alone I feel here, away from all that I know; wondering why. And I started to think about relationships, and how we exist in relationships. Like the concept of Ubuntu, I am because you are, and who I am is defined by my relationships to others and I do not exist in a vacuum. This may be why when travelling, especially alone, we often feel so open and vulnerable in a sense…. We are now alone from all that which makes us, US or what we’ve come to believe has made us us. Of course we still are whether we’re in Africa or Canada, or anywhere, but not being around your common stories and relationships has a way of transitioning your thinking and opening you up, for better, or for worse.

Oh how I'm in constant thought here.....

Posted by Jocelynn.R 04:35 Archived in Tanzania Tagged home travel change ubuntu community together fear relationship pamoja Comments (0)

My heart still aches. Life, and death.

In the lands of Ngobobo; Maasai live on.

sunny 20 °C

In retelling stories from this past weekend, tears are coming to my face. The goat; I watched give its life. And maybe give isn’t the right word, for give implies choice, and the goat seemed not to have a say.

It is part of Maasai culture, but to me I just feel sad.

I watched and went to witness because I felt if I am going to eat meat (and for all the meat I’ve ingested in my lifetime), I ought to be aware of the full process. And, indeed, the fact that I have eaten meat for so long without ever seeing or truly knowing the process is what perpetuates the awful practices of the meat industry (indeed meat and industry ought not to be words that go together).

It’s easy to eat meat when you are blinded to the process, purposefully kept hidden. When you find it in the grocery store neatly packaged, not resembling the beautiful animal it once was, no signs of life, or death, just meat in a Styrofoam package wrapped in plastic.

It’s easy to ignore the fact that a life was taken, that an innocent animal was killed. I might actually go so far as to say it’s not even ignored because ignore implies a conscious thought to push something away, but I don’t even think we think about it on that level, it’s just meat, it’s there, we buy it, we eat it… tada. How did it get there? We don’t ask questions, we just buy, and consume…and buy and consume. But the reality is, it was an animal, it had a life, a life like you and me have a life, we breath in and out, and we live, so too do the animals, so too did those animals in those neatly packaged containers and its life was taken for our consumption and if we’re lucky, it lived a happy life, on pastures and was free to roam but more often than not, and especially in today’s day, if you’re buying it in a grocery store and you have no idea who the farmer is, and how it lived it’s life, it’s probably industrialized meat. Which means it likely never saw the light of day, never roamed pastures freely, and was injected with steroids, growth hormones, and antibiotics, force fed corn based products which irritate their stomachs, while it stood in its own fecal matter pushed up against hundreds of other animals. But we ignore this, we ignore it because it’s too painful to deal with, and because theres a lot of money to be made and so the industry wants us to ignore it so a lot of money goes into keeping our eyes blinded. And I think a lot of us know the process is bad, we have all heard stories and have seen PETA videos, and heard our vegetarian friends tell us their reasons for not eating meat, and we’re starting to learn more but yet we still ignore because it’s painful. It’s so incredibly painful. But, I think it’s time we unveil ourselves to the truth because until we truly feel that truth our actions are blind, and we create unnecessary harm.

Witnessing the goat lose its life on Saturday brought so many emotions into my body, namely grief, and guilt. For all the animals I ate growing up, I don’t think they were so lucky to live on Maasai lands and be outside, free. While watching this goat die was hard, it certainly had the long end of the stick, this was heaven compared to the industrialized meat process – the meat I ate before I knew better.
I can’t get the image of the goat out of my mind. Its innocence, just sitting there, instinctively knowing its fate and thus not trying to fight it.
In this moment, I want nothing more than to bring it back to life. I see I’m going through the stages of grief, disbelief/shock, anger, bargaining….I find myself bargaining, about wanting to return to the moment it was still alive, and set it free. It’s so scary to me that there is no turning back. What is done, is done and there’s no going back. A life was taken, it can’t be reversed. I hate that I sat there and watched, knowing this goats fate – did it know its fate?

I asked to pet its head before it was killed, I told it sorry (pole), and I thanked it for its life. I wanted to do more, to have a ceremony around the gratitude for its existence but there were so many people around and watching and it felt weird – though that’s no excuse.

I hope so much, in my heart, that the goat felt no pain, and that up until its death, it was relaxed and happy – I really hope for that, but there is no way for me to truly know.

It really freaks me out that it is gone, forever.

Writing about it now I’m filled with so much sadness and am crying again. I feel so much sorrow.
I think if people are going to eat meat, there is no excuse to ignore the realities that are. One should have to bear witness to the WHOLE process. It’s not okay to turn a blind eye. It’s of course harder to bear witness in the west when a lot of it happens behind closed doors, but if you’re buying organic meat (and for your own health too, I hope you are), and you know your farmer, visit the farm and witness a killing, then decide if you will continue to eat meat – I think it’s only fair.

The whole process has deeply affected me, and I will never be the same. I feel a deep sense of pain and loss for not only this goat, but for all animals that have given their lives and give their lives daily, that have no chance against humans, and those, especially, that don’t even get the decency of being outdoors.

I remain undecided about eating meat. I did eat the goat, around the fire and then at dinner. I felt it was important to taste it and be one with the whole cycle but it didn’t feel good as I ate it. I saw it’s face, and the process, and as I chewed the meat so many images flooded my mind.

At breakfast the next morning we were asked if we wanted bacon with our eggs, and I said no. I just couldn’t. Already I don’t eat that much meat and when I do I purposefully choose organic, ethically raised, and happy meat but even still, after seeing this goat process I’m not sure I will eat much at all. I still keep the same sort of principle about food being a community process and if I am at dinner at someone’s house and they have prepared a meal I don’t want to refuse to eat it if it’s meat but it’s complicated, and the answers are more and more less clear.

To the goat that gave it’s life on Saturday, and to all other animals that have given their lives – I thank-you and I am so sorry for any pain you felt, or any unhappy lives you may have led. I share in your pain. I can’t bring you back to life, so I send love out into the universe as I’m not sure what else I can do.

I hope my words have done the experience justice; I deeply hope that my experience can touch others the way it has deeply touched me.

Asante mbuzi. Nakupenda sana.

Posted by Jocelynn.R 00:21 Archived in Tanzania Tagged death life love tradition meat maasai sacrifice goats industrial ngobobo Comments (0)

A trip within a trip....much like those nesting dolls.

Serengeti, Mwanza, and Permaculture Design Courses

rain 17 °C

So much happens here on any given day, week....even any given hour, minute, moment...it leaves my mind wild in thought, and makes it difficult for me to isolate any one and write it down.

Right now we have our first Permaculture Design Certificate course of the year, offered in Kiswahili. The teacher, along with some of the students are staying on site so we have more people around which, to me, is great. Though not a lot of English is spoken so I am still rather out of the loop in terms of comprehension, it is nice to have the energy for more people around. The teacher, who is from Kenya, speaks good English though and we had a couple great chats. I can't express how happy it makes me to know that he exists and is teacher the Permaculture love to people over here.

We spoke of many things, but one being the seeming lack of "we can do/change/fix this" type attitude here. I asked him why that is and we spoke about upbringing, and schooling. He noted that many people feel personal shame and that stops them from thinking they deserve to stand up for anything, as well, with hose who have not had an opportunity to receive proper education, the shame is increased. He said he noticed a definite correlation between those who have received a supportive education, and loving upbringing, and their desire/belief in creating change and not accepting the status quo. Of course this makes intuitive sense, but something you don't really realize until you think about it and talk further - or at least that's how it was for me, anyway. Add that to the list of things we unknowingly take for granted in "developed" world (for the record I hate using that word because the implication is that it is better than and I'd argue there are pro's and cons to each) - our sense of empowerment and belief in deserving certain things or creating change; arguably keystone to our evolution as a species, and our understandings of this world.

Despite having that lovely conversation and feeling more signals from the universe that I am right on track, today I feel off. I miss my home, my community, my people - Vancouver. I miss the place where I feel I belong and can create change. Here I feel rather dis-empowered and I am certainly not my best health-wise. It's far too rainy to be able to get a good run in, so my mind remains a bit of a blur....ahhh, what I wouldn't give for a long run by the seawall, followed by a nice big bowl of fresh garden greens, I keep seeing all these amazing things happening back in Vancouver, too, and I'm so glad they are happening, but I can't help but feel I am missing out and that inside I belong back there to create the most amount of change. As much as I love it here, I feel stuck. I suppose this time is about learning and discovery, and less about doing but it's hard to accept that.

Yesterday I was walking home from town, it had been raining so much but in this moment the sun was out and the air was thick with humidity. I was not in a very good mood because I just wanted to be home, where people would stop staring and pointing at me. Previous to that, in town, I was walking to the bus stand to get my sweater that I left on the bus home from Mwanza (a miracle I could even recover it), and I had my rainboots on....these local girls, I imagine a few years younger than me, said something, made faces, pointed at my boots and laughed amongst them selves, then as one got closer, she tugged on my hair pretty hard. I was very taken aback by the whole situation, but it also made me quite sad. I really would like to understand what their thoughts were on all of that and why the need to do that. So, that in conjunction with the usual stares and "Mzungu" callings, I was ready to be home. But back to my walk home.....behind me kids called out "Mzungu" but at this point, I just ignored them. In front of me, on the right, was this little boy, as I mentioned. He was carrying his little muddy runners in his right hand while he walked barefoot in the mud. His little legs were covered in mud and his purple school sweater was ripped, the left sleeve missing altogether - I wish I had my camera to capture such a beautiful image but it's likely for the best - I'm not even sure what being present to that image provoked but it's just life here sometimes, and thinking back, in that moment I feel that little boy captured so much - mainly acceptance and the will to keep on keeping - but also I think that's only in my head with my perceptual bias' a plenty.

I miss being clean. It's just so dusty here always and now with the mud, everything I own has mud on it. The little things you don't realize until you don't have them, and yet for the record, if I had grown up in this area I would be absolutely fine with it as I'd not know any different so it's important to keep that in mind and not let my Western bias get all up in my thoughts.

I've been thinking a lot about what it is, specifically, that I like here, what it is, specifically, that pulls me in? I want to be able to figure that out so that I can cultivate it back home and feel satisfied with the life I will move on to live when I return to Canada. To be honest the thought of going back home now fills me with confusion, and sadness, but also happiness and potential. It's weird to experience both of those at the same time. It is in Canada where I feel I can conduct my best work and be my best self and yet it is also Canada where I feel the intensity of isolation, of reduced community energy and the pressure to do.

Anyway enough about my brain on fire...let me say a bit about my trek to the Serengeti and then Mwanza - as I just arrived home on Monday night.

The trip started with my arrival the Arusha airport on the 29th of April around noon-ish with an hour to spare, reporting time for the cargo flight I was about to take was 1pm, with departure time being around 2pm. Actually, that was prefaced by a dala dala ride from the city to the airport, wherein the guy told me it was going to be 1,000 to which I responded...Kweli, kwa nini hapana mia nne (why not 400 shillings.......as it always is), everyone on the bus roared with laughter at my broken swahili, but in a nice way and the one gentleman who helped hold my bag asked me about my Swahili and said I could speak good haha... right :P ...anyway the dala man let me know that for sure it was 1,000...so I eventually just gave up and said ok, fine... I will pay that. Then I took a piki to the airport for 1,000 shillings - a quick ride but safer than walking with a big back pack. Anyway, back to the airport.... I still didn't know how I was actually getting there/who I was to meet (besides a name and number, though when I called it it didn't work)....but I knew that it would work out.... it's both due to language but also just lack of detailed planning that things here seem very chaotic and yet, undoubtedly they work out in the end. Eventually the guy I was to meet showed up and it all worked out.

The flight over was very clear - we flew directly atop Oldonyo Lengei and I was reminded of my previous trek up that insanely difficult mountain where I felt I'd almost die - it's funny talking to the locals of the areas about that Mountain though, they are so laisser-faire about it, but it's all what you're used to. We flew over the rift valley and it was unlike anything I'd ever seen - it's hard to believe such majestic beauty exists on this beautiful planet of ours.


The flight was only about an hour, it was just the pilot and co-pilot, me and another consultant. We landed on a private airstrip in the middle of a private piece of land in the Serengeti - never did I think I'd have such an opportunity. My friend was busy showing his guests around still so his friend met me. On the drive up to where the employees stay, we saw an Impala, and a Giraffe - ahh yes, I thought, I was back in the Serengeti. As we drove up and away from the landing strip, the most magnificent view emerged - endless Serengeti, with the sun at a perfect angle.


While I was staying where employees stay, I was able to get a tour of the really fancy lodges that the guests stay in. This company owns 350,000 acres of private Serengeti land and the story goes that the owner was originally a poacher (still is), but realized that all the poaching was disrupting the migration patterns and he wanted to conserve the animals so he made a deal with the government to purchase the land and I believe he now pays royalties each year. I can not even imagine how much that would have cost because the government of Tanzania was making A LOT of money prior from all the fees to poach animals, and then money that would be made into the future - this was, I assume, all taken into account when determining a purchase price - of course my brain goes to thinking about a discounted cash flow analysis and what factors they took into account..I'd really love to look at the analysis that was done.... ;).

Anyway, there are three lodges at this specific site and I was able to get a tour of two of the three. The first one is the most expensive and it is on one of the hills in the Serengeti so it overlooks such amazing vistas which my words cannot do justice. As you stand at the edge, the view goes on and on, and it's absolutely stunning. The hotel is nice too but of course, I prefer the nature part of it. Actually, by "the hotel is nice" i mean, insanely fancy and it's a bit over the top to be honest but I guess some people like that kind of thing. It just boggles my mind the displacement of wealth in our world, I did a calculation and for 1 set of guests to stay one night at this hotel, (and not even the most expensive cottage, indeed it was the cheaper one of all versions), it would pay for our entire payroll as an organization here, for one month. Pretty insane.....


I got to see many more animals, highlights being a few herds of Elephants (Tembo) with some babies, Giraffe's (Twiga), Zebras, Warthogs (Pumba) - with their little tail up as they run, hehe so cute,monkeys, baboons, birds, a mom Cheetah (Duma) with her three cubs, and both male and female Lions (Simba), and some cubs too though the cubs of both lions and cheetah's were pretty big - they grow fast! I guess when I say highlights, I mean all - I can't even say one is better than the other - it never gets old to see these animals in their natural habitat - so cool.


We were lucky enough to camp one night at the permanent tented camp lodge. When we arrived after a late afternoon game drive, it was already dark and the sky was littered with glistening stars, including the Milky Way. I've certainly been seeing some great stars what with living more in the country, but wow the stars in the middle of the Serengeti are hard to beat. There was a fire pit going when we arrived so we sat by it, had some beers, and some good chats. I could have stayed there forever - tilting my head only slightly revealed such a majestic starry night. There is something so calming, meaningful, and potential inducing, about looking up and seeing all of that.


After that we had a meal made for us and then there was a party for Labour Day as it was a public holiday so we drove a ways, through the Serengeti, to go to where the party was happening. It was cool, a lot of the works came, some good music played, and we danced - felt like I was at a club in the city but better since everyone was so friendly, and many familiar faces of the great staff I had met since I arrived.


Somewhat oddly one of my favourite parts of the trip was being able to run on a treadmill. It's funny because back home I MUCH prefer to run outside but here I had not had a good, mud-free, yelling free run so it was absolutely beautiful. It was hard though because as I enjoyed it, I couldn't help but think about how after it was done, I would not be able to get on one, or do a good run, for 10 months or so.... it makes me incredibly sad just thinking about it . I really need to get it together and develop a strategy around how I can get the same effect but maybe not via running, especially during these wintery rains.

I just checked and the weather says it's about 21 degrees celcius in Arusha, which I'm assuming it's a bit hotter right in the city so maybe it's 18 or so here? But man it sure does feel colder.....the humidity and breeze, coupled with the rains make for a damp and cold situation.

Back to the trip, time flew and it was time to head out, I was definitely going to miss the morning breakfasts in the communal area, by the beautiful window seat overlooking the Serengeti.


We were going to bus to Mwanza early Saturday morning, but we found out a plane was leaving later that day, so we stuck around and caught a flight
to Mwanza which drastically decreased our travel time - and we got in an extra game drive, and saw a male lion and some cubs - two I think. They had their eyes on the Pumba somewhat off in the distance. Thinking we may see the lion catch its prey in action, we waited idly by, but after a while the lions lost interest as the Pumbas sensed the danger and took their precautions.


Mwanza is a beautiful city, very coastal-esque. Lake Victoria is so incredibly massive - I had heard it was massive but flying overhead really allows you to see how big it truly is, and whilst on the ground, it certainly feels like you're by the ocean, which was bittersweet as it made me miss Vancouver in all its glory. There are many many rocks, cliffs, and hills in Mwanza, with the houses built right into the rocks so it's a beautiful sight to see. The city seemed more lively in a way but also we noticed it was more expensive, food-wise anyway, even though we had been told that it was cheaper than Arusha, it seemed to be quite the opposite.


We stayed in a hotel that was 40,000 shillings per night and it was right downtown Mwanza. We went out for some samaki (fish), and took piki piki's to get there - the drive of mine actually had a helmet to wear which I was not used to, but it's just as well, as we rode on busier roads. As we rode to where we were going to eat dinner, the sun was in the process of setting, and as we drove down the street the lake was to my left and it looked absolutely beautiful. It was a warm, peaceful night and part of me thought "Wow, maybe I should have came to Mwanza instead!" The piki was 3,000 shillings (we both rode on our own), which seemed a reasonable price. We shared a plate of dinner as it was quite pricey, 13,000 shillings for one plate- sounded like we entered a Mzungu restaurant, but a lot of locals around so whose to say.


There were so many cats around - they liked the fish!- and I liked that :) After we were finished eating our fish (we got a bbq one and you get the whole fish - so it's up to you to pull the bones out etc), we didn't eat the head, and so I was picking at it to give to this cute little cat who was eating it right up...somewhat violated picking the brains of this fish and it felt a bit violent but seemed better than to waste it. The place then had some live music so we stayed to watch it.....a number of people on stage but our favourite was a man with a D&G shirt on. He had such a cute little dance and as he sang he would put his left hand up to his left ear, in a cupped fashion - not sure if it was to get extra feedback from the monitors or what but it was quite the site to see - without exception, he'd do it every time - I got a little video of it going down.


The next day we met up with Bablo's friend and he had a car so that was good because he drove us to these nice hotels right on the water so we could have a look. They were pretty far away from the bus station though and since we were to be leaving at 6am the next morning, we decided to stay closer in town, the hotel we stayed at the last night was only 20,000 shillings, and right by the bus station. An added bonus (depending on how you look at it), was that the light bulb in the bedroom (1 of 2) and in the bathroom, had been replaced by a multi-coloured flashing bulb - which made using the washroom interesting, especially at 5am when half asleep and getting ready to leave.


We spent our last night at the pub next to the hotel, watching a football match on TV, and listening to some more live music. We got Ugali, nyama choma (bbq meat), and chips for dinner - actually we ate that in the room because we got distracted by this awesome TV program on BBC called "African Voices" and it was all about the organization Twaweza which made me stoked that I was seeing some "yes we can" empowerment type of action over here in East Africa. I definitely suggest checking them out. There was also a clip about painful, traditional breast ironing which was happening in Cameroon. They take these big rocks, heat them up and then use them to, as the name says, iron young girls breasts are they are entering into puberty.

Ugh, the things that women have to be subjected to all around the world - it disgusts me. They claimed they did it to prevent unwanted attention from males. Heaven forbid we teach our boys, as they are growing up, to respect woman - what a concept! I guess though more information is getting around now and so this traditional practice is slowly decreasing in numbers, so that part is good.

I woke up at 5:15, quickly changed out of my pj's, zipped my bag up, went to the bathroom, and headed out the door. I looked at my water bottle longingly but I had vowed to not take a sip for fear of having to pee while on the 12 hour bus ride with limited to no stops!

Later on the bus I realized it had been the proverbial calm before the storm. As we left the hotel and set foot outside, it was still dark, of course, but it was also intensely silent, except for some crickets and other night creatures. Then, appropriately timed, was the Muslim prayer on loud speaker. It was really odd walking, just the two of us, down a street, where previously, a few hours ago, there had been many people, now no-one, with nothing but the loud speaker sound of the early morning prayer - I felt like I was in a movie. A few moments later we were at the bus station and there were people everywhere, hustling and bustling, people trying to find their bus, people trying to sell tickets, everyone yelling every which way - utter chaos, or so it seems, I'm really not sure how it can be so organized. We found our bus, put our bags on and took a seat. We got to sit right behind the driver so we had a big view out in front of us.


The bus ride was interesting. I was so dehydrated but I decided it was better to feel extremely parched than to have to pee - that has got to be the worst feeling, especially when the bus is bumping all over the place. That, and....I had started reading a book Bablo lent me called Desert Flower - The Extraordinary Journey of a Desert Nomad by Waris Dirie (great book by the way and I highly recommend it, and very important to learn more about female genital mutilation and how horrible it truly is and how it absolutely needs to stop), and in it she spoke of not having water for days and how dehydrated she, and her animals would become and Bablo too, told me of his growing up years and how he'd have to go a few days without water at times and I thought - wow have I been so privileged... so yes, not drinking a lot of water whilst on a 12 hour bus ride - I could do that....I reminded myself a few times during the ride "your body has enough water in it, it is going to be okay!"....certainly my body is accustomed to having a lot of water, all the time.


All in all it was a great trip and I'm really glad I was able to partake in it. I'm now back "home", in Sinoni, back to doing the books for FWS. I am going to be helping out more with some of the Permaculture projects and their implementation as we have lost our Perm volunteer.

Until next time..... as my head remains a flurry of thoughts.

Posted by Jocelynn.R 05:57 Archived in Tanzania Tagged animals home wildlife africa tanzania conservation serengeti mwanza permaculture Comments (0)

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